and if theirs nothing left to say...

some people cant leave well enough alone, im not going to go into more details, but i cant understand sometimes what talking will achieve, not that i dont think talking sometimes helps but whats the point in talking about feelings when someone isnt sure what they even are.. i also don't understand people acting irrationally when its only going to make a situation worse, forcing someone to spend time with you or talk about feelings is totally the wrong thing to do when that person just wants a bit of space and some time to reflect on things...

anyway, I'm off now to "talk" i hardly have anything to say except:
"i bind you from doing harm to yourself"

gaz

where my nails went

had the most nearv-racking affternoon of my life! or at least for he past few years and you can blame football for this!

last game of the season my exeter city playing southport (who are already relegated) at home.... have to settle for Internet coverage so im spending most of the afternoon glued to my computer, following the game and the other game.... what do we go and do, blow it first half.... my heart sinks and im thinking well that's it for another year we will be playing tinpot FC in tinpot prem again for Xnumber of years

i have to leave at halftime for work, and by the time i get here its all said and done, and i cant stand to look! so with my heart at this point back up 2my mouth i glance at the results and YESSSSSSSSS

2-1 exeter we did it, im not 100% sure of how we managed to turn it around but bring on Oxford and hope Paul Tisdale red and white army can make it all the way to wembaly

death by myspace

Myspace love it or hate it these days it’s apart of internet life. Whilst I have many friends who do not use the site a lot of friends and indeed acquaintances do. The reason I’m writing this is because of some recent events with someone I’ve been seeing (no im not going to drop names as it wouldn’t be appropriate). The person in question who in so many ways is a lovely girl and has made me really happy over the recent past however from my experience at least she seams to have some trust issues which have come to ahead over myspace.

I would like to point out at here that this blog is not intended to be a criticism of her or her views but rather an exploration of my feelings regarding recent events and myspace over the past week or so. The girl in question claims to hate myspae and especially has strong opinions regarding decency and what can be termed “myspace whores”. Whilst this I respect, I would be the first to confess to having some people who post revealing pictures on their myspace page, some friends I know, some I don’t know so well but I would argue all have the right to post what ever they want on their personal pages and others including myself then have the right to comment. Anyway as recent events have transpired the girl im referring to who claims to hate msypace has taken it upon herself to read into some of these comments and take them out of the context that they were intended, even worse she seams to hold resentment for some of the people I am friends with and this has manifested its self in mistrust for me. Which, I’m currently finding very hard to deal with.

Now I realise this is a public journal and the bands, not my own so im not going to go into details about some of the things im thinking and feeling they are personal to me and im rather mixed up enough about them at the moment but what im trying to illustrate is how silly and sorry it is when a really nice relationship can be destroyed by a seed of mistrust, I don’t blame myspace and I don’t blame the person this is referring to but sometimes people aren’t compatible and its strange an internet site can be the cause of a relationship breakdown

gaz

everybody singing

just firstly wanted to say well done to Enter Shikari who last week got their album into UK top 20 album charts. the amazing thing is that they don't have a label or management and basically run things them self's, its a testament to determined unsigned bands and I'm certainly going to be looking into them a bit more if only to maybe learn a little about how they did things..

anyway was talking to a Friend of mine today and she was saying that she heard paramore in a club and didn't really like them. whilst i respect her opinion and of course we are all allowed to like or dislike whatever music we want it got me thinking about paramore and how much i love their music and respect what they are doing. i think apart for me liking the music and personally loving Hayley Williams voice from everything I've seen and read about paramore they seam like one of the nicest bands I've ever encountered, if anyone doubts this id say go do a little search on you tube at all the clips of paramore, just hanging out with fans and meeting people. I'm a big fan of the acoustic set they seam to put on for fans often in the afternoon before shows. its really refreshing to watch how down to earth they are, and their live journal (http://paramoreband.livejournal.com/) is also worth a good read..

paramore to me at the moment are a little spark of inspiration :)

gaz

gigs around the country

we just got back from a gig last night in Sheffield, was a awesome gig set went well and a lovely venue what struck me thought was the audience, or lack of for that matter! the place wasn't exactly full in fact the whole city was dead. which to me was striking because when me and Jim got back to Manchester things were buzzing (even at times fighting). to me this is a real shame because as mark put it "and when they wonder where their music scene went they will wonder why" it's sad to go to places and their be little interest in the gig scene.

must point out the contrast this had with derby the Sunday before which was buzzing... the whole experience has made me wonder why some city's are so uninterested in live music. Manchester isn't from experience as supportive as it could be with its local rock/metal bands but that may have something to do with its Indy pasts, whats Sheffield's excuse?

gaz