I'm in quite a reflective mode at the moment, I'm just thinking about things that I've done in the past and things that are changing and coming up in the future.... looking forward to this week a good friend of mine who means alot to me is coming back to England over the next 24hours and i cant wait to see her....

im not gonna go into much more detail that that but it makes me feel quite lucky and optimistic about making things work at the same time im conscious about changing some things and feeling a little spiritual at the same time....

ive heard that things come in 3's ive got at least 2 big things of note happening this week im looking for s symbol that will indicate the 3rd

gaz

got back from a long weekend, went to the glass barrel with Mr. Paul on Saturday night then ended up in a half dodgy pub was a good laugh and i got to hear some tunes i don't usually get to here out :) highlight of the night was Paul telling this random guy at his house that his landlord isn't his mum :D haha so funny!

we had an awesome time in derby this Sunday at the gig really impressed with Ellie playing Truth or Dare as she had never heard the song and had half hour to learn her part... thumbs up cause it sounded amazing on stage! go Ellie!

smoking ban kicked in Sunday, its such an odd thing to see groups of people outside every pub in the country i can only see it causing so much trouble around town centers on busy club nights drunks loitering outside ever club and bar...

went to the Ritz last night, again got Rather smashed to top of a long weekend highlight was seeing Squeak :) brings back a lot of fond memory's of a few years ago every Monday night... i miss those days!

gaz

i hope that, that you are happyi hope that at least you are having fun

gaz

hi first a quick update on things.. my finger is healing relatively well although i don't think it is ever going to be the right shape, that said I'm glad to have it back and a am just just about gaining full mobility, of my hand. as you can imagine having your hand stuck in 1 place for over a month, you loos a little bit of the mobility...

we also have started work on our demo, our Label "b-grade records" are being very supportive in this process and we are all please with the results so far.. we appreciate people are anxious about hearing the results and we apologise that this has taken so long to get started on as we have all had alot going on this past month with download and exams, moving houses and such.

on a personal note, im alright had a few changes going on in my life at the moment and im excited for the future, ive learnt alot about some things over the past couple of weeks and... im hoping to take things a bit slower, let the world fall into place around me and hope my missgivings about a few people, fade away into time...

gaz

a medical mystery

i was playing football last night and the worst thing that could possibly happen, happened! i was only in goal for 5mins and i must have made about 3 saves.. take the gloves off and my middle finger on my left hand is bend down (as if i was double jointed)... i didn't feel any pain but i couldn't close my hand, to be honest at the time, i was slightly confused about it as i dint even remember it happening but it visually looked broken.. i carried on playing as best i could, obviously a little distracted...

after the game i did the sensible thing and walked down to MRI to get it checked out spent next few hours with the drunks and the violent in the hospital.. had an x-ray or 2 and was seen by a doctor, strange thing tho, nothing... x-ray shows up as fine, well my hand visually doesn't look fine, no breaks or dislocations.. i cant understand it! my finger wasn't that shape before i went in net and i cant close my fist so obviously their must be something wrong with it! but according to the doctor it is fine!

gotta go next week and get it checked out again, right now its in a brace and hurting a tiny bit but its being kept straight, lets hope by next Wednesday it heals in that possession otherwise i don't know what we are going to do as we have a gig!

anyway its somewhat of a mystery as my finger just doesn't bend that way!

gaz

and if theirs nothing left to say...

some people cant leave well enough alone, im not going to go into more details, but i cant understand sometimes what talking will achieve, not that i dont think talking sometimes helps but whats the point in talking about feelings when someone isnt sure what they even are.. i also don't understand people acting irrationally when its only going to make a situation worse, forcing someone to spend time with you or talk about feelings is totally the wrong thing to do when that person just wants a bit of space and some time to reflect on things...

anyway, I'm off now to "talk" i hardly have anything to say except:
"i bind you from doing harm to yourself"

gaz

where my nails went

had the most nearv-racking affternoon of my life! or at least for he past few years and you can blame football for this!

last game of the season my exeter city playing southport (who are already relegated) at home.... have to settle for Internet coverage so im spending most of the afternoon glued to my computer, following the game and the other game.... what do we go and do, blow it first half.... my heart sinks and im thinking well that's it for another year we will be playing tinpot FC in tinpot prem again for Xnumber of years

i have to leave at halftime for work, and by the time i get here its all said and done, and i cant stand to look! so with my heart at this point back up 2my mouth i glance at the results and YESSSSSSSSS

2-1 exeter we did it, im not 100% sure of how we managed to turn it around but bring on Oxford and hope Paul Tisdale red and white army can make it all the way to wembaly